Let her find photos of naked women with fictitious bods on the computer. Porn is the #2 cause of divorce (infidelity). And yes, it is indeed infidelity even though not everyone will see it that way. Lusting after another woman is considered adultery. And looking at pornography is lusting.
Want to know how to damage your marriage further? Stop the porn and make it look like you've really changed, work to re-earn your spouse's trust, and then, right when you actually start making some progress, crush it again. You know the saying - trust takes years to build, seconds to break, and forever to repair. Well what about when they keep breaking it? Over and over. How do you get yourself back from 7 years of broken trust? You give him the chance to change, and he blows it... so what are you supposed to do next?
Fool me once, shame on you... fool me twice, shame on me. Sorry, this post is really just a vent. The shock of finding more porn on my computer from my husband is still sinking in. After 3 months of trying to make things work, of trying to make repairs. Of thinking we were past this. They say it takes 6 weeks to start a new habit - well we were 15 weeks in, so what now?
I don't know where to turn next. One step forward, and like 1000 steps back. It was hard enough to say "yes, let's fix this" the first time. But at the same time I feel like I've come too far in my spiritual life, in my personal life, to just give up all over again.
I'm not saying I'm just going to let it go and keep going like nothing happened, but I'm not saying I quit either. I have a few days to clear my head while he's out of town with work. So I'm starting there. My heart feels like it's shattered into a million pieces... I'm going to try and pick up the pieces, but I don't know if I can put it all back together this time. I'm giving it to God, because only he can repair something so broken.